Hey Matches, this one is for you.

Can I be honest for a second? I’m not mad about Damian’s death. Sad about it yes, god yes; I cried over this little boy. He just wanted the love of both his parents. I didn’t want him dead, I wanted to find a way that he could be with his father, running around fighting crime.  I wanted to see him grow up. I’m not saying I don’t feel a little cheated that Batman and Robin will have a new Robin, and not one I care about. But Mad? I have a hard time getting mad at it. But I have a hard time getting mad at something, on some level; I knew it was going to happen.  Morrison left us hints what was going to happen. I don’t know why they had to have Batman Inc. in the main canon, when it felt like it was something outside of it. It sucks, but I don’t feel it as bad as a few other things they have done. It is just more icing, on a cake that is more icing than anything else. I guess I’m just raged out at this point. Plus, I feel that there is a lot of ways that he can end up coming back. After all, he is Ra’s grandson, and that man isn’t opposed to stealing bodies out of the bat’s back yard. ((And you know, look how dead Jason Todd is.))

I can’t get mad that Morrison gave Damian a pretty good moment to shine. Over the comic from when he was introduced, to his death, he grew as a character. We got to watch him grow a soul, and learn that it was good. That was amazing. Morrison also gave Damian what I felt, was a hero’s death. He faced his problems with more dignity than a lot of the ‘adults’ in his universe(cough Superman, Wonder Woman). He didn’t run when things got hard. He didn’t try to find how he was really feeling, or push those feelings onto something else. He didn’t shy away from danger. He went for it. It is just a shame it had to end this way. This kid died saving the world, I can’t put it any less than that. Was it heartbreaking that he sat there and begged for his mother to save his own life? Hell yes it was. But I feel that it served a good purpose. That it had a purpose, unlike something else that is still in canon and fucking every where.

I guess what I am trying to say is that if you were reading Batman Inc. from the first issue, we had a pretty big hint this was coming. Bruce was standing in a grave yard, looking at a grave, saying it was over. Batman was over. That was the biggest hint he could give us. I can’t get upset when the hint was there. Unlike something else that they announced a few months back that had no hint or warning. This didn’t slam us in the face with no warning. This slipped in from the back room and hung out there.

The other thing I think we need to remember in all this, is Grant Morrison is leaving the company. Anyone get the feeling this was a big fuck you?

What I will say I am mad about is that Batman #18 isn’t going to deal with Bruce’s grief over his son’s death. That is something I can get fired up about. Damian is dead, I want to see Batman cry. I want to see that he gave to shits about his kid. I’m sorry, but what the fuck does Haper Row have to do with Damian’s death? Is she going to be the new Robin? Because I have hard time seeing Bruce taking on someone who has no training. And come the fuck on, Squire just lost knight. Wouldn’t seeing Squire and Batman work together, both as heroes and getting over their grief together as something fun to read? I would love to see those to go through their grief together, as they both lost their other halves. Not Haper Row. She would be fine in an oracle role, but you can’t have her replace Damian. Damian was Bruce’s son, he was highly trained, and to replace him with some punk off the street smacks of disrespect. And I don’t see Bruce doing that to his son’s memory. Or it just implies he never cared for the kid in the first place. Which is just insulting to him and the reader.

 

I also wanted to say, this isn’t me coming back. This is me just dropping in on something that Matches asked me to touch on. I still have a lot of issues on life that is keeping me away, but I hope, fingers crossed, to be back during the summer and up and running again. Maybe even sooner, if I can get my head on straight but I don’t want to make a promise I can’t keep. My metal health is in the crapper right now, still for a mutliple reasons. That needs to fixed before I can do any more of this. But I miss doing the blog a lot. I want to thank you all for the supportive comments as well. They mean a lot to me and it made me happy to see that the internet isn’t full of dicks.

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Sorry, but this is the truth.

This is going to be the most painful post I have ever written I think.

I’m sorry, but I need to take a break. I don’t know how long it is going to be, or if I’m going to come back. That has a lot of factors on things I can’t control.

The truth is, three or four years ago, I fell in love with a Character. I haven’t realized it. That was Wonder Woman, Diana, Diana Prince, whatever you want to call her. She was a Hero, in her own right, she kicked ass, but she was still able to be kind and loving.

When the New 52 happened, I was excited. I was glad that for once, I was going not have to just pick up trades, and get in on the start of something big. I didn’t have to worry about back issues and anything like that.

Then the announcement happened. One I had been afraid of from the start, after I read the rumor online. Superman and Wonder Woman were going to be a couple, and I knew what that meant. That Diana was not going to matter any more. That the trinity no longer mattered. It was all about making Superman look good. It wasn’t about anything else.

Diana was going to stop being a hero. She was going to become a side kick, and that has been proven on every turn. Superman has to teach her everything, even though she has been living in She has become something nasty, snapping at Lois for looking at her man. Why does she care so much? They had been around each other for five years. Is this all Diana cares about? Men? She got to take center stage in the Justice League comic, because she is dating Superman, not because of anything she did. She didn’t do it because she was a hero in her own right; its about whose dick she is after at the moment. Their relationship is all about Clark, and making him look cool and hip. Diana is just something to slip into its place; being that they have been stealing art and scenes from Lois and Clark’s relationship only drive this point home. She doesn’t matter. Clark is the only thing that does. The fact that Diana and Lois were drawn alike by Lee doesn’t help. Diana had to be rewritten to fill that. I told myself that is could be short lived, and if I could get through it, it would be no big deal. After all, it was only in Justice League.

Yesterday, I found out it was in Superman. I found out it was in Aquaman. And I felt my heart-break. It became real, and that it was going to stay. I couldn’t make jokes about it and ignore that nagging facts in the back of my mind. The Diana who had swooped in and saved me in my darkest hour, and no matter what, she was never coming back. DC had murdered her and replaced her with a puppet.

Diana is close to me for a lot of reason. I have mentioned before, the character saved my life. I have PTSD because of some very horrible things that happened in my childhood. She had so many things happen to her and she was just able to go with it. These were the things I wanted for my own life. I began to change. I became stronger. I decide that there was something good in the world. Why? Because Wonder Woman was in it. It is rare that a female character happens like that, which I think Men don’t realize. She was someone, that girls who had been through hell like me, could look up to. Who had been abused, and mistreated almost their whole lives that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. That things get better. You don’t need a man to make you happy, you can create your own happiness. That Love is a great thing, but you can survive without it. That being a strong woman doesn’t mean you have to give up your femininity. And that you are not just a walking vagina. You are something so much bigger than that. Now I know that isn’t the case.

So much of my own streght was tied into her, and now that she has bee ripped away, I don’t feel it any more. I made jokes about people getting attached to characters before and how silly it was; I didn’t realized I was one of them.

Now Johns is writing her as a child. She couldn’t figure out how to have a secret identify without him. ((Even though she had done it in her own comic.)) In the old cannon, it had been a gift from Superman and Batman, as a way to give her a chance to find herself. Now it is just a way for her to live with Clark and fill Lois’s role. She is just an idiotic girl who flies off the handle. She is not, let me replete, anything that she was. No charm, no witty, not even that loving soul that I had fallen in love with. She is a shell, some strange creature wearing Diana’s skin. It was odd, and uncomfortable.

Look, what happened to me, as a child, I know has no way attached to what DC has done. They have no idea that I exist, and that I loved Diana. But they could have shown Diana some respect. They could have shown us readers some respect. Instead they did whatever they wanted. DC made me feel like I should have been born a boy. They make me ashamed to ever have made the mistake to be born the gender I was. For everything that has happened in my life, this is the first time I have ever felt this way.

My whole life, I have been plagued by my childhood. I have wondered the basic facts about myself. Things of what point did I really lose my virginity, or if I had ever been one really, what had I done to diverse the torture that I had received. Why had God painted a target on my back? Diana, finding her at 20, helped a lot of that. She taught me it doesn’t matter, that you need to push forward, that you have to find your own path and just go for it. And the part that hurts the most, is that there aren’t going to be other girls, who really need this Diana, be able to find that right now. And I honestly don’t have hope it will get better. DC doesn’t care about created strong characters of either gender, it is able making a good buck.

I didn’t realize how much I feel in love with her. How attached I became to her. How painful it is that she has been cut down, repackaged to be nothing more than just a way to make Clark to look good. They are not partners, he is the one in the driver seat. She is the pretty arm candy. The fact they couldn’t in the comics give a reason for them to be together, they had to use match.com.

My friend and fiance tell me it won’t last, that it will disappear. The truth is, even if it does, I’m never going to be able to look at Diana again. The fact is, I have enough problems trusting real people. I barely trust the people I call family, let alone anyone outside of that. I trust characters more than anything else. Diana betrayed me.

Which brings me to why I’m stepping away from my blog. I need time. I used to love doing this. I used to love reading your comments and responding to them. I know I was always crass, and hoped I brought some smiles to people faces. I wanted to be enjoyable, and I hoped I pulled that off.

Now I want it over quickly, because I can’t stand it. And it was nothing any of you all did. It was the comics themselves that drove me away. I can’t stand the joke blog that started this. I know I made jokes about Diana and Bruce dating, because I thought that couple would have been funny. It would have been amusing, because of their nothing fights. How they would have played off each other. But now that Diana is spoken for, and that this is long term, I can’t smile at that any more.  I can’t enjoy it any more. I can’t enjoy her any more. She has no meaning to a female any more.

I was excited, before the announce meant came out, for issue #13 of Justice League. I was excited to see Diana get her moment in the sun. To get the chance to be seen the way I, and many fans saw her. But it wasn’t her moment in the sun, it was her time to be shoehorned in a relationship. Because that is all she was good for. She is the replacement for Lois Lane, and so now she has to act more like Lois than herself. Don’t get me wrong, Lois is great, but she is Lois, and Diana is Diana. Or at least she was.

I realize that this all, is silly and stupid. That this is such a first world problem and I have nothing to complain about, but it breaks my heart. It breaks my heart that what made Diana special and wonderful is gone, because that means that girls like me, girls who need to be saved the most, wouldn’t have access to her. That Diana is dead. Wonder Woman is dead.

I know that its so fucking stupid. That a character, a person who doesn’t exist, can hurt me so bad. But it does. I spent a lot of time crying and knowing that I couldn’t come up with funny panel friday. I could barely open the books that I have. My backlog just keeps getting bigger and bigger. And I dread looking through it.

The trips to the comic shop, writing this blog, before the announcement were things I enjoyed. That I loved doing. DC robbed me of that. They robbed me of a lot of joy.  Worst of all, they rob me of you, the people who followed, who commented, who lurk. And I know it is stupid mentally, but emotionally, I can’t cut it away. And I know that it doesn’t matter. They just want my money, and don’t give two shits about my feelings. As long as I keep picking up issues.

I hate my brain. I hate what my PTSD decides for me what is important. That makes me judge my worth as a person by. And I’m sure that this is the post where I will be told to just kill myself and get over it by trolls. That they aren’t real, and that it doesn’t matter in the long run. And in a way, they are right.

So, for now, this is good bye. I don’t know if it is for good or not. I’m going to miss you all and I thank you for giving me the time of day to read my words, and letting me entain you. It has been a blast. I just wish it could have lasted longer.

I know that I’m not about anything political or anything like this, but really, this is bullshit. Rape is already a crime that is hard to prosecute, and it is laughable how many rapist don’t ever see the inside of a cell. A crime that affects woment is wholely ignored. And there are a lot of reasons for this. Media is one of them. The presentation of women in media is part of the problem.

Anderson Cooper 360

CNN’s Kyung Lah reports on controversy in California over an old law. If a suspect impersonates a woman’s husband during an attack, it’s considered rape. But if the victim is unmarried and the suspect is impersonating her boyfriend, the law does not classify it as rape.

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The Amazing Spider-Man #700

I picked up the last issue of Amazing Spider-Man, because, well, it seemed like a thing to do. I know there was a big to-do on OMG, They kill Peter. Well, being the non-warning spoiler ass that I am, he doesn’t really. He has a mind out trippy moment, but doesn’t die. Or better say that the idea of Peter Parker doesn’t die, since he was Doc Oct too? I’m not sure completely what has been going on in the first part of the issue, and was kinda lazy to look it up, sorry. The whole clone thing is a little confusing to me, but whatever. I honestly hadn’t been reading the issues before, so I’m not sure why Doc Oct is super old and all that jazz, but the first story lead into what I felt was a much cooler part.

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The issue really ties up the storyline, and then has a few short pieces to go along with it. My favorite is the now elderly Peter Parker talking to his Grandson about what happened after the series ends, such as his life with MaryJane, the birth of his children, and ends with him taking the kid on a web-sling tour of the city. I think one of the great things about comics, and moments like this one, is when you get to see the characters doing things like this, because it gives you the feel that these are normal people. ((This is something DC has forgotten. But I’m not gonna talk about them.)) To me, that was the real ending. He is finally given a chance to grow, and to be whatever he wanted with a sense of freedom. I loved it.

This is just to fun.

This is just to fun.

The Datenight story was cutesy and fun. I enjoy things that are really tongue-in-cheek, and I thought that it pulled it off well.
I will admit, I don’t know much about Spiderman and his Mythos, aside from the cartoon I can barely remember and those horrible Toby McGuire ((OR WHAT EVER THE FUCK HIS NAME IS. I’m Lazy and not gonna look it up.)) movies; but this was enjoyable. It was the first Spider-man Comic I ever picked up, and it made me want to check out the new series they are going to do.
I will say this though. I feel bad when I like something, because I feel like I don’t talk about it as much as I could. I mean, the art was good, the stories were well put together as far as I could tell. ((the first one I’m, not sure about just because I don’t have the issues to before it so I don’t know.)) It felt like a real ending, Peter has come to terms on what it means to be Spiderman and is ready to get on with whatever life has to throw at him. The writing was good, and it wasn’t plagued with what most comic book writing seems to be.
As an aside, I know I haven’t talked about my thoughts on Death in a Family, but my shop keeps getting shorted on comics coming in, so I am still waiting on a few issues. I did get to read Batman and Robin though, and that issue was a lot of fun.

Hawkeye 4-5-Crap

Edit: I don’t know what is up with word press and me, but it has been saying it has been posting my stuff then not. What is weirder is it like eats the post, after showing me it posted.
I wish I could say that picking up Hawkeye was my idea, and solely mine. But it wasn’t. It was a character my friend loved, and talked me into getting his first issue so she had someone to talk to about it. And so, I did. I picked up the first Hawkeye for my friend, and honestly, she only forced me to get issue one, and it has been a complete blast all the way through.
Since issue 6 was just like a Christmas episode, I’m jumping back to four and five, which was an arc called The Tape. The Tape that is so important, well, it’s just Hawkeye murdering some dudes. And Shield wants it back. So what does Clint do?
Go on a magical adventure where he gets to drive a cab and make some money on the side because he ends up losing his bags in the airport. He gets captured by a villain, Madame Masque, ((Who I know nothing about, because I am just now getting into Marvel.)) who ends up pulling a black visa out of his ass. This is just a page and written in a way that makes me feel as uncomfrotable as Clint in reading it. Now I would like to say that it was good writting, but that makes me feel dirty. I wish I was making that up but you all have already seen it on Friday. He ends up being saved by Kate Bishop, the other Hawkeye, but it is pretty fun to me how they both seem to just trip and fall into success.

This scene really needs no words. And yes you are seeing it again because I read it and it made me as uncomfortable as Clint.

This scene really needs no words. And yes you are seeing it again because I read it and it made me as uncomfortable as Clint.

But story telling stuff aside, ((Which is always fun. I would love to see Superman drive a cab, because that would be funny. But it will never happen.)) I think my favorite thing in Hawkeye, is Clint’s relationship with Kate. They are partners, not lovers, and it has an almost brother and sister feel to it. Which is awesome, because their relationship is real, and completely believable; I feel like it is one of the best written relationships in comics at the moment. They rag on each other, and you feel that they care about each other. It isn’t like some of the other relationships out there, when are just ready to crash and burn.

The other thing I like about the series, and most of the Marvel stuff in general is that it isn’t all life or death. Yes, if they don’t get the tape back, its bad because shit will go downhill, but really, it nice to know that everything is not about going over board and dealing with some of the small stuff too.

A Bonus Blog -Backlog And Batwoman

NOTe: This was an old Blog post that said it posted but pulled a dick move and didn’t, so I am reposting it now. And because I think there are a few points that need to get out into the world.

Because my Comic was closed for a bit, and they are pretty much the only pony in town ((Not completely true, but the other places are not my boys damnit)) I have a huge backlog of comics that I have to get through. And we are talking a few, we are talking about fifty.

So because of that, I’m a bit behind. But Fear not, I have something to Bitch about!

Batwoman has been dropping the ball for me so hard core that it is driving me mad. Her and Wonder Woman may be in the same comic, but they might as well be half way across the world from one another, because I honestly could not buy they were working together. There is a little text box Diana has about how she is not as brave as Batwoman and basically a shitty human being.

Hey, Remember when Wonder Woman kicked some serious ass and was willing to do what ever it took to get the job done? Where she was a strong female character who didn’t need a man to drag her around and have someone basically control everything that she did? Yea? How she was the one out of the Trinty to do whatever it took to save the world, including killing a man even if it ment the two men she saw as her best friends and allies may never talk to her again? Yea, me too, and I want to know where the fuck did she go?

The New 52 Wonder Woman is complete shit. Her own comic isn’t about her, it’s about the new gods and everyone else in the story. SHe isn’t strong or Brave, she is just there. She is a prop. And it pains me to say that. I love Diana. Or more of I loved what was there before they decided that her only use was to get in Superman’s bed and not leave it. That her only worth is just to be Superman’s fuck toy, and that she is weak and whimpy. Fuck, she feels that way in her own comic. And they wonder why she isn’t selling. They removed all that made her Wonder Woman there. I hate how that has become the most important thing in the Universe, is what is going in Wonder Woman’s vagina. It shouldn’t be. As I have said so many fucking times before, That should not be the corner stone of your universe is two characters and their fucking relationship. It is still written like they are friends, and really, it should have ended 2 issues ago.  It has no where to go, and the characters have no contrast with each other. Contrast in a romantic relationship is what makes it interesting for the viewer, the reader, what have you. No Contrast, no Drama. DC is trying to force drama because everyone is against it. Which makes it come off forced. But That is a blog post for another day. Because I’m still pissed about it.

And she is coming that way in Batwoman. And the other problem I have with it is that Batwoman has become to fucking worder. I have issue 14, and got it before my shop was closed down for two weeks, and I just just can’t get through it. It’s like someone is trying to pull my teeth out of my head. There are though speeches, and they are fucking speeches, that these two women have that go fucking no where. And it would be much more interesting to see these two women interact. I was excited at first because I thought the real Wonder Woman was going to be in there. She isn’t.

I have been making jokes to my Fiancee that blue boot Wonder Woman isn’t Wondy. She is a puppet made by Cicere to think she is Wonder Woman, and make everyone else think that too. And Red Boot Wonder Woman is really out there somewhere, and when she breaks free, she is gonna kick the shit out of Blue Boot Wonder Woman. I would say that is what DC is leading up for, but really, that is never going to fucking happen, because that would be creative. And DC doesn’t do creative. They do gimmiky and bullshit.

Marvel does, and that new Deadpool comic is going to be the greatest thing ever.

Bonus Blog-Grilled cheese Edition

Hey, remember this panel?

You see?

You see?


I found something to help Tony out.
Why does this even exist? It would be a bitch to clean.

Why does this even exist? It would be a bitch to clean.

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